And now we’re a quarter of a way to the next 10,000 and about halfway through the third chapter. You can see a rough order here: around 5,000 words per chapter. It’s an inexact science, and each chapter will take exactly as long as it needs to. Still, twenty pages seems like the basic length they demand.
Writing fiction takes far more time and energy than even the densest non-fiction. However much information I pack in and however complex my thesis, for me an article is little more than a brain dump. I have this thing that I want to explain, and here I am explaining it in whatever words occur to me at that moment. Maybe if I’m feeling precious I’ll go back and redraft, to try to focus the discussion.
Here I feel a responsibility to the characters, the world, and the reader. It’s not as solipsistic as I am accustomed. Maybe that’s why it’s revitalizing me, instead of just depressing me the way that my articles do. There I always feel like I’m scraping away at my mind to extract an overgrown splinter. After a decade, the process has really worn at me. With this story I’m exploring and observing. I feel like a catalyst, permitting something to take form.
It’s an indirect thing and it’s exhausting in a different way. This is more like exercise, as opposed to self flagellation.
I like writing this thing. I look forward to completing it, so that I can go back and read it as a whole.